Saturday, May 27, 2006
Whole lot of nuttin
This is just going to be a whole lot of nuttin. It's a bit more than a week from my birfday; I'm still harboring some hurt there, but I know I need to let that go.
The job I interviewed for has been eliminated, due to budget cuts. Talk about not needing to make a decision! I'm spectacularly glad about it; I think I applied for all the wrong reasons (job protection from a shark in the office), and yet have managed to remain not only unscathed but climbed up a notch or two in the eyes of my dept manager (which is all that counts, bottom line). I'm still able to work my preferred hours, and able to do some of the "educator's role" without the hassles. God answered my prayers about this in a way I would have never imagined. He always does that, I just don't know why I end up worrying. Someday maybe I'll break that bad habit.
Also, I have reconnected with an old pal of mine. She has wounded me severely in the past; she's had some emotional trauma which has ricocheted in my direction, through no fault of my own, and I honestly thought we would never reconnect. She lives a few towns over now, is happily married (her 4th or 5th marriage I think), and we are baby stepping back into our "pal ship" through long e-mails. I don't tend to connect with a lot of people. I have an artistic side which I suppress a lot (it may be self satisfying, but it "don't pay" the bills), and only a few people realize that I am a very different person outside the work environment. I think my own personal demons squash attempts at friendships as well. Anyway, I'm optimistic about this reconnection. Hubby is cautious, as he has seen me wounded by this gal many times and doesn't want to see it again. I think I'm being emotionally cautious, but I don't really know.
So, how's it going with yall?
Posted JDaaris @
7:27 AM ::
2 chocolate drops
Gimme some chocolate!
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