Monday, February 20, 2006
Lack of communication, misunderstandings..
seem to have been the main item on this weekend's agenda. I jumped to some wrong conclusions regarding my husband early Saturday evening, and had a miserable Sunday because of it. We didn't speak. He's fine when that happens, but I'm not. I have a tendency to over communicate my feelings and position on things (mostly to him only, thankfully); he has apparently developed the art of not listening but appearing to, to a masterful level. I'm sometimes placed in the position of defending myself against the verbal (and sometimes physical) onslaught from my adult daughter. She never does this in front of him; she punched me in the back yesterday afternoon, called me a few horrible and choice names. Why I'm subjected to this, I don't know; why my husband doesn't take a more proactive role in defending me, I don't know. Why this is even tolerated in our own home, I don't know.
I don't feel I should have to be placed in a position of offering my side of the story, versus her side of the story, then having my husband/her father decide who is telling the truth. Reminds me of adolescent she said/she said type stuff, and I don't want any part of it.
I wonder if our communication, and him believing me, trusting me implicitly will ever be where it needs to be. I wonder if he will ever simply put his foot down and force our daughter out of our home. She's overstayed her welcome by many months now. I think the stress is slowing killing me; my heart beats very irregularly, I'm having chest pain more frequently... I guess I gotta do what I gotta do for myself, at some point.
Sorry this is so long and so whiny. Thanks for "listening."
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