Sunday, December 04, 2005
Not in the mood to be a hypocrit today, perhaps tomorrow
Hi all. Wonder why I can look at my husband of over 30 years this morning and actually detest the sight of his face? I'm quite irritated at him and it's Sunday morning (naturally); we usually go to SS and church together, but I'm just not in the mood to pretend I like him today. I'll regret it, I know...I woke up to the litter box for the cat missing from its usual spot. We have three cats and three litter boxes. I have asked him for two days to change the one in the bathroom (his job by his choice). Well, it was missing this morning. Not only that, the box left on the front porch for one of the cats was out there, but he left the screen door shut so that it could not be accessed. That left one litter box for three cats... which ain't gonna fly with them, they will not share the same box. I found the missing litter box on the porch, just left in front of the door, NOT EMPTIED OR CLEANED. It's a constant and stupid battle. I've told him over and over again, to simply tell me he doesn't want the responsibility and I'll do it myself. I cannot stand a dirty, smelly litter box, and neither can the cats. Such a stupid, stupid thing to be irritated over. He never apologizes; he said he planned to take care of it this morning, it did not need to be emptied and cleaned last night. Why can't he simply admit he forgot? Why does he have to always be right, his opinion matter more than mine? I can't look at him right now, I just want to spit in his face (gosh, what an awful knee jerk reaction is that? And I call myself a Christian? I detest the vehemency of my own anger over this issue). I had to share my anger right now, don't pay attention to me. I just want to get him out of the house for awhile and drown my sorrows in some decadent coffee flavor, which, of course, I don't have (White Christmas from Barnies coffee sounds good to me right now...) I'll probably end up deleting this, it's so stupid.
Posted JDaaris @
6:34 AM ::
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