Monday, December 26, 2005

Yesterday was like being with strangers...

in a way. Because Apos asked how it went, I'm continuing the Christmas tale, however, for the most part I won't mention it anymore after this. The mantel is not up, which is as I expected, unfortunately. Funny thing, I had mentioned the mantel many, many times; I also was looking at the Sunday ads a couple of Sundays past and mentioned that I liked one of the watches in a Macy's ad; I have loads of character watches from Disney, all of which I like and wear interchangably, however, for church I would like a dressier watch than Jiminy Cricket or Mickey & Minnie ice skating.... Hubby wanted to see the ad; I teased him and asked him which watch he thought I liked; he picked out something completely inappropriate, so I showed him the two that caught my eye, both were about $89.... I thought he might have gotten that for me for Christmas as well, especially after our daughter opened her gifts and pointedly asked him what he had gotten for me to open... he said they were still in the truck. I see the tiny package he brings and my heart sinks... he had gotten me some type of ring, that was obvious from the box. I have a lovely wedding ring, a dinner ring, a cameo, an emerald pinky ring, and my grandmother's engagement ring. I can't wear them all at one time, and I don't wear my rings in the house, frankly they are too cumbersome for me while working (typing), and I don't like to wear jewelry while cooking. He has had to return the last two rings he bought for me because I just don't want anymore rings. I opened the box because he expected me to; in there was a rather gaudy, not well made pinky cluster ring from a lower-end jeweler in town (we've never dealt with this business before, he doesn't have the best reputation). Hubby insisted that I handed him an ad with this ring and told him how much I liked it.... I don't even look at these ads, let alone ask for a ring. I'm wondering who has told him that and how he can get it so mixed up..... I was not kind in my remarks, unfortunately, mostly because I was hurt that after 31 years of marriage he knows me so little... I really wasn't angry but my tone was harsh.

I realized after a while that he thought I was angry. I went to him, told him how much I love him and what a wonderful guy I think he is ~ all true ~ and he very briefly sobbed in my arms and said nothing.

I think he may be having memory problems; I worry that he is getting Alzheimer's (symptoms start while in your 50s and he's there). I think I'm going to insist that he get a physical after the first of the year, and if there is some testing that can be done, I wish it done.

Yesterday was very bittersweet; it's not about the presents... I would rather have nothing to open and simply watch others open theirs; I wish my husband and daughter could understand that.

Sorry this is so long. Yesterday was a day I had just as soon put behind me.

Posted JDaaris @ 6:45 AM :: 5 chocolate drops

Gimme some chocolate!



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